Life keeps unfolding new pages and we keep meeting new people, make new friends, new relations and in this phase at times forget to turn back to the old pages of the book called LIFE.
I have been lazy with friends, always been blessed with good ones though wherever I am, but may be get involved into so many different things ……to realize that.
I still remember this friend of mine I met in 2005 December at 10:00 in the nite at the first day of my call centre job at GE Money, she was surrounded by all the new batchmates, guys though, taking lead in guiding everyone, conversing with everyone and trying to be a center of attraction, she was sweet, but girls never get off their jealousy at the age of 21 when another gal is gazing all the attention from guys, so from then I didn’t quite like her, but she being the only gal in the batch I had to walk around with her in the corridor and be friendly with her…..it did not take me 15 minutes to change my opinion of her because she was extra caring, concerned and friendly with me….
And it was those 15 minutes and the year 2011, she has been extra caring, concerned and friendly this time not only with me but for my family too….
When we started our job and would have trainings, it was very popular with everyone that me and her are always seen together, for meals, for training sessions, walking around in the corridor, or be it at the cafeteria, we had gelled well as good as best of buddies…..
I don’t have the quality of making friends so close and steady but there was something in her…..it wasn’t very often with me that I would meet someone for 2 days and jus let out my life in front of her, my love life, my family, career, we shared everything with each other. I still remember at the end of training when we all batchmates were being split to different teams, Our coach specially came and apologized to us that both of us could not be in the same team for various reasons….he was not obliged to say sorry to us being our coach but he knew and everyone had sensed the bond it was….
Since then she had been conscious of my relation with my b.f, who is now my husband….and seeing me happy in my relation would give her absolutely equal happiness like it gave to me! And moments of sadness, oh…. she would not leave me alone for a single minute if I was low,so much so she would bunk office with me, take me out for a shopping, movie or a dinner and not let me spend a single penny….or also stay with me at my home to ensure I overcome that blue mood, get things ok and be in high spirits….I am sure people would envy me for having such a friend…..
we were just making 8K that time, which wasn’t enough for her to pay her rent as she stayed as a P.G, maintain her living and then spend so much for me, it sometimes came to my mind, should I ensure my luck to be favoring me so much that I have a friend so loving,, a family so close and a love relation so beautiful….
But contrasting to my life and luck, things weren’t same with her, she had a b.f, she had a family and a friend like me too….but never saw her to be very happy in her relationships with b.f or family for that matter, and yes I should have been there for her as much she was for me, but no, I regret not being there so much that it would be sufficient to wipe her tears with a tragic personal life on and off…I was studying while I was working, so I had other things as well that pushed me away to give that time to her, studies, family which needed my time, and b.f
But the friendship wasn’t ending was it, I had more time to make up for it…..jus when I thought of it, I switched jobs, it wasn’t working too good for me…the night shifts and all….people in our team and office were shocked and would often go to her and ask, “now that Priyanka(me) is not going to be in the office, hows it gona be like?” I was upset too….but I knew the bond was strong, it didn’t jus start and end at work, it was beyond.
A new job for me , a new career, got me busy and engaged, I remember she was going through tough time almost a break up with her long relation b.f, was time to make up, I did try my best to be with her, stay back at her place, or take her out, but not denying the fact, new job, new friends had pushed me into other things too….I was guilty about it, but life broadens itself and you need to keep opening your arms to grab all of it….
2007 was the year when I got engaged and since then I was very rarely in touch with her, so much that at times she would have relations n breakups and I didn’t even know of them…..I am sure she needed me but marriage being such a phase in a gals life n marrying your long term b.f….it just kept me intact with other things…..so much that we didn’t shop for my wedding together, didn’t tell her whats the plan, hows it going to be….it graudally faded away , the reason why wasn’t she involved…guess because I was ignorant of her…and she has this quality of not interfering or disturbing someone if the other person isn’t interested. Was this that she thought? But we did, we did speak on phone, sms, and met on off….
But strange how the friendship or friends who would be with each other 24/7, jus met on off…on a special moment of starting a new life, 2008 I got married and moved to another country, again, new country, new life, lost touch with her….but as she knew my sister mom dad….being a bunch of emotional people, she would visit them or take them out for a dinner to fill the gap of me being not there….soon she became very friendly to my sister….who is 3 years younger to me….22…..so much that I felt my sister and her were friends then it being me n her….And history repeated itself….her concern, care and love that she had for me, was same for my sister , mom and dad, so much that she moved from uncle and aunty to mom and papa with my parents and acted like an elder sister and a friend to menka(my sister)….be it her problem with some relations, low about her studies, career, she would buy her new clothes, take her out, be with her, stay with her…to make her feel better………and not so lonely…

I have been going to India, in 2010 and then again 2011, met her once or twice, because there so much to do and so many people to meet when ur a married person you don’t afford to much time for friends…
But this January I met her and felt the old days were back, night out parties, stay back at my home, go shopping together, now it was a bond of not only me n her, but menka(sister), me and her…and it struck my mind…that this is after so long, we are together and so happy, the days were same, we watched a movie until 4 in the morning three of us, had magi together like we used to….n slept, and jus when when we woke up in the morning….and were having our tea, me my mom n her on bed…..I hugged her and told my mom, she my only and only best friend, I love her….and she smiled….and I could see it in her…how much she had wanted to hear it for so long…..her smile was so pure that time…..
Sometimes we get so involved in new things n stuff, that relations take a backseat and it can take a long long time to revive them…
I came back to sweden and we have been in touch on off again, She wasn’t too happy with her relationship yet again and family pressure of marriage, but I just took it easy cz it had been 6 years that she was going through family cliffs and relationships not doing well, and I knew Menka was acting like a good friend, in all this trouble and bad time too when she would call me and talk , she would talk about little problems that Menka had, and me being a selfish sister, would only discuss Menka’s problems, so little did I care to get deep about her problem or life…..she was giving all that she had too but was she getting what she should have or deserved…..
Remember on the day of India vs Pakistan match, she called me and I was in a good mood going out with my husband to watch the match together with some more friends…and I didn’t take her call n jus skipped calling her back…..she needed me then may be…..and I wasn’t there…..And now
I can’t be there for her now…
She relieved herself with these troubles, and ignorant friends, ignorant relations, I mentioned that I thought she had been through this for 6 years and had grown strong….but I was wrong, she was rather getting weaker and weaker within….
Its been one week that shes gone, shes no more alive……shes left me in guilt, in sorrow and alone…
Time has gone and will never come back but this attempt to tell her…that she was is and will be my angel….someone I can never replace in my life, I miss her from the bottom of my heart and sorry for not being around when you needed me…..I pray that you in your new life are surrounded with beautiful friends, loving relationships and strong bonds…..I wish you a very happy life Jaspreet…..I feel your loss everyday…jus that I am late in realizing it….sorry!!!